Deepening of the blog...
I have been challenged tonight by a certain Kieran Murphy, I don't really know Kieran, but I do know King. This evening I discovered his blog and probably for the first time I discovered aspects of Kieran and not King. And i liked! Bit of background for you all here... I used to work with King at LCET last year. He is a VERY funny guy and I loved spending time in the office with him. To say that we had a shallow relationship was probably quite fair. Very much based on humour and not a lot else. Certainly a wasted opportunity.
This brings up issues from last year. Mainly I was questioning as to why I did not have any REAL friends. Only now can I say that I am fortunate enough to have friends who honestly care, thanks largely to Soul Survivor. But I yearn for those friendships to have good solid roots. Looking back I questioned why this had not happened sooner. I questioned whether it was because I was commiting too much time to my work or to my then girlfriend. But I quickly realised that this was not true at all, not even close. I only saw her every 2 weeks (at the most) and in between that I had the right balance of rest, play and work and all the way through this she was committed to praying for me to have good strong male friends, and now thanks to the mercy and grace of God that has happened.
But why not sooner? I was changing as a person over the summer months of starting CYM. I was not happy with just being the joker and wanted people to see who I was, which is slowly taking shape. My blog has mostly been about jokey and shallow stuff (and food and drink... explains quite a bit!), but I feel challenged to let others know what I'm feeling but at the same time to not just restrict my true feelings to the computer. Don't worry though, I will still be posting random items of fun (I know you loved the Guanabana one!), that's part of who I am (the fun part - not the Guanabana). It's a question of revealing the true me, and that is a subtle (why have a B in subtle?!) blend of humour and a deep caring side. Feel free to explore...
And Finally... to all you Kieran's out there, don't be afraid to come out into the open. People will still remember and love King, but they will love and envelop the Kieran side of you too. Here's to you King Kieran!
This brings up issues from last year. Mainly I was questioning as to why I did not have any REAL friends. Only now can I say that I am fortunate enough to have friends who honestly care, thanks largely to Soul Survivor. But I yearn for those friendships to have good solid roots. Looking back I questioned why this had not happened sooner. I questioned whether it was because I was commiting too much time to my work or to my then girlfriend. But I quickly realised that this was not true at all, not even close. I only saw her every 2 weeks (at the most) and in between that I had the right balance of rest, play and work and all the way through this she was committed to praying for me to have good strong male friends, and now thanks to the mercy and grace of God that has happened.
But why not sooner? I was changing as a person over the summer months of starting CYM. I was not happy with just being the joker and wanted people to see who I was, which is slowly taking shape. My blog has mostly been about jokey and shallow stuff (and food and drink... explains quite a bit!), but I feel challenged to let others know what I'm feeling but at the same time to not just restrict my true feelings to the computer. Don't worry though, I will still be posting random items of fun (I know you loved the Guanabana one!), that's part of who I am (the fun part - not the Guanabana). It's a question of revealing the true me, and that is a subtle (why have a B in subtle?!) blend of humour and a deep caring side. Feel free to explore...
And Finally... to all you Kieran's out there, don't be afraid to come out into the open. People will still remember and love King, but they will love and envelop the Kieran side of you too. Here's to you King Kieran!
posted by Pete at 01:25
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