Saturday, May 28, 2005

Not understanding.

I just found out that someone I know has been taken from us. He was a guy who worked for YFC last year so I knew of him, but as a result of doing Sports Team meant that I knew him a bit. My housemate told me 10 minutes ago and I don't know what I'm thinking. I dont understand, I know that much. There's friends of mine that know him better than I do and I guess that's what I'm concerned about. I don't feel its healthy to go into too much detail on here about how he died but it does leave me with questions about how this could have happened. This is helping though, I'm collecting my thoughts and trying to make sense them so that I can type, that helps. I dont understand why God allows this to happen. Someone so young going in a tragic way when there was SO much potential. Is there anything that we (or YFC) could have done better to support him and give him accountability. Is that our fault? Was it God's plan? How does that fit in pre-destination?? Flippin heck! This is shit. I guess I'll post updates on my thoughts here as I need to sort my head out somehow. In the mean time I guess I should pray. But what the hell for?!?! COME ON!! I NEED ANSWERS LORD! But I'm placing it in your hands cos I trust and love You!

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

You know what pete, there actually aren't any answers. and you know i can say that from living in it. this is where faith becomes faith i think, when there are no answers, where there will never be any answers, and yet someone still chooses to cling to Jesus.
i'm really thinking about you, and my heart truely goes out to his family.

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